Hard to surrender...



Her slim seductive body, her bitch made up eyes, her fucking smile,



Her spoiled fake way of walking



She is easy to hate



She is hard to surrender to...



God I never hated someone like this


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Hope I would forgive her someday...

I am tired of looking for a reason

It's hard to live

when there is not even a blue sky

there is no oxigen for a deep breathe,

there is no happy families

no happy friends

no reason

no love

no reason to wake up for

I try to be a good girl,

I try to act my best,

But I oversleep all the time,

And I get the worst marks out of the exams,


I am trying to change things,

But destiny is taking me.

Destiny is bringing me failures apparently,

Maybe there'd be good things behind...


Maybe god's alive.

Maybe He is waiting for the devil to leave.

"I don care"

"I don care ,Think the way you want."


But I will care to the very last moment.

I know you're lying too.

We forgive and forget,

That's all we've done for all these years of tension,

I see you,

I do not smile,

But I feel it again,

And forget it all.


You watch me,

As if nothing happened.

And I keep silent.

Feels like we are still embarrassed together,


You still want me,

Somethings never change.


I won't say a word.
I won't complain.
I will just watch you getting ready.


Sure,I'll pay your final request.

You'll pay mine too then.


Nothing's left of us,
But,

One last goodbye.